When I was on Nutrisystem in 2000, I got down to 178 lbs and everyone started telling me how great I looked, and many said I didn't need to lose any more weight, so I quit. I shouldn't have, I was still overweight, but being as curvy as I am, it looked good.
I'm there again. I'm at 180-181 (depending on what day it is) and can't seem to get below it. I've been fighting the 180s since May 18. Two freaking months and I haven't broken below 180. I'm frustrated and discouraged. I know it's because my husband is absolutely thrilled with me right now, and has been making comments like "you look great right now, if you don't lose another pound, I'll be happy". I'm wearing the clothes I bought 5 years ago and hearing all the time, "You look great!", so mentally, I'm exactly where I was in 2000.
The problem is - I don't want to stop right now. I don't want to weigh 180. I want to keep going, but I keep sabotaging my diet. It's like after 6 months of being on NS, I want to eat real food. I don't do it at home (much), but we've been going out to dinner more and I don't fight it at all. I try to make good choices, but I'm at this point where ANY meal off of NS will put a pound on me.
While a pound isn't that much, it's that pound that puts me back at 181 and then I have to fight for a WEEK to get it off...and this has been happening now for a month. Struggle to get to 180, one meal out and back to 181 - fight for a week to get to 180 and then another meal out...yada yada yada. It's SO frustrating!!!
Today, we're driving up to Oklahoma to the WinStar Casino and all I can think is "great, another day off program" and worry about what it will do to my weight. I'm just not having fun anymore :(
3 comments:
Saying 'hang in there' seems kind of trite, but it applies nonetheless. You will reach your goals, and the fact that it isn't easy will make the achievement more meaningful.
In the meantime, I hope you win HUGE at the casino!
Thanks for stopping by my blog and for your nice words.
Hang in there you can do it. You have done so well!
Don't give up Helen!!!! It will happen....maybe tell your DH to lie to you and say instead "Helen, you need to keep on going. You've done great, but you still need to lose a bit more."
well, just a thought! hehe..that way it will be in your subconscience to keep losing weight and not eat off plan. :-)
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